Wednesday, 10 December 2014

archiving some short writings

Dec 8,2014
My adventures with specs
Since my youth I wore glasses for my distant vision. May be this inspired my heart and head to look for things my eyes cannot see and so I ended up all chasing all sorts of goals all my life! My adventures with specs had some trying as well as amusing moments. In my junior college years, once I was going for a student camp with friends and as we boarded a crowded train somebody knocked off my specs and it was stamped upon by fellow passengers in the usual rush in Indian railways. Without my specs I felt so lost that I had to get off the train and miss the summer camp! Recently I went for a meeting and landed the premises with only one glass in the frame as the other one had felt off somewhere somehow and as I kind of felt like a one eye Jack! I had to leave asap as I didn't want to be the joker of the day and so to go back to fav optical shop in my neighbourhood! Again one morning I was asked to read a portion in a daily devotional in a dimly lit basement conference hall. My companions had patiently bore me out as I struggled to read from the 11 fone size letters with the reading speed of an eighty year old! They had a good laugh when I tried to explain in my usual 2 or 3 bullet points • my eyesight had been rather used to reading only from electronic screen with adjustable fone size and lightings, • am actually using my old specs due a strange kind of fondness even though I had been prescribed a new pair with a new power some weeks ago! I discovered that day that old is not always gold!


23 November 2014
Time Dumb Frequent Traveller
Reached airport today at 4 mistaking my 7:45 flight to be 5:35. This is quite a change for me even though a bit extreme - remembering the many times I reached airports at the nick of departure time - sometimes I got through because I had connecting flights, most of the times they took pity on an innocent but not too intelligent looking passenger! I remember boarding a flight as the last passenger where the engine had already been running; another time when there was no time to book my luggages and so two airline ground staff helped me to board with my luggages.
Talking of luggages I remember one time coming back from US having to forgo some of my small baggages as only 2 booked luggages were allowed no matter what the weights were. Also one AIDS conference in Australia I came back with all the freebies and handouts I could collect - that far overweight my limit but was permitted to carry as they are AIDS related materials - only to litter my small office back home! There were other awkward moments - showing up at an airport without an I card and all I had was my business card - and also showing up at the boarding gate with my spouse with only one boarding card as we had misplaced one! And to our utter surprise we were handed the missing one at the counter! I believe in humanity as I survive on 'the milk of human kindness' that God provides for a dumbo frequent traveller like me!

Nove 3, 2014
A time comes when you come to the stage of managing life with less than a supple knee - when the synovial fluid and the ligaments seem to be failing in their level of adequacy and efficiency, you realise a few things you no longer can do without a measure of risks - starting with the basics like using dessi toilet or yoga mats, managing stairs without handle bars... The worst is that you can no longer bend down and kneel at the tomb of your love ones if you happen to visit them or at the church pews or next to your beds as you used to .. How quickly time flies..

Oct 29,2014
A typo or a spelling help in your computer making a bizarre correction of the Paite words you use, a wrong propped up and prompted name you wrongly add in your mailing list ... Forgetting name of a long lost friend when you happen to meet suddenly ...bring in lots of  or ! Life is fun!

Oct 23, 2014
3rd day in the kitchen (when your better half is unwell) - Dal isn't too sticky anymore, 
Rice no longer burnt and pressure cooker takes less effort to clean - no need to use steel wool to clean the black spots, boiled vegetables are no longer dry but even have some soup to enjoy; still can't quite manage multiple things at a time - hanging washed clothes to dry, getting water containers filled and minding gas stoves all at the same time! Still baby steps to take even in your mid sixties!

Oct 20, 2014
The anguish of a mother with a stillborn babe ... loss only the affected bore alone in silence ...

July 8, 2014
Concern for one another
The way we express our concern for one another's well being is one of the most beautiful things in my community. We greet each other by asking each other's well being e.g. dam maw? (are you well or fine?) He, dam nangla? (Sure, how about you?) Nong dam u maw?(hope everyone's fine back home?). He noula, nana dam zel zel umaw?( yes, how about you - have you all been well). Even letter writing ends with wishing each other's well being. Damtakin (be well) Damni ( May we all be well). Let's not lose these kind of old-time greetings and preserve our age old cultural values!

May 14, 2014
Recalling a Chinese friend in Calcutta in 1988
A well built but small frame with a height just about the same as mine was Mr John. We met in the church. He was with his wife and one small son and we got into small talks and soon became good friends. He invited me to his father-in-law Chinese shoe shop in one corner of Calcutta New Market. His father-in-law was not a Christian even though John and his wife were. I became a frequent visitor to the shop and every time I went there John and I would chatted endlessly on matters related to our respective lives and our families so on and so forth. He was a volunteer in a missions field in Africa and while loading and unloading truck loads of literature and food items, he ‘broke’ his back and had to return home. Since then he was helping in the traditional family profession of his in laws in the city of Calcutta. Shoe making was an art in which the Indian Chinese excelled and they have been making shoes that are of excellent quality available for sale at a relatively cheap rates affordable to college students and young professionals. He would talked of days his team spent in Africa (I do not remember any longer which particular country it was) and how good the Lord was to them in providing what was needed every day. I would tell him about how faithful was the Lord in the remote areas where I was posted, how I took the posting as a preparation to work as a missionary one day and how in all circumstances we saw God’s hands. I would recount the desire of our family to be in missions but that so far we had not yet found an opening. I would ask my friends in Gideon International why God would not give an opening and I would be told that till we hear a definite calling we were to hold on faithfully to whatever God had allowed us to do as his own work and only move on when we become completely sure of God’s leading to leave our work and place.
By the way way I used to enjoy the 'Bongsung Puanpi' cleaned and cooked the Chinese style!

May 11, 2014
Reflections on Mother's Day 2014
A tearful prayer of my mom as I set out to world unknown to her .., a never dying love I have from my children's mom ... The delight I see in my own daughters experiencing the unique and wonderful mother's love in their lives ...,,
Lord thank you and bless them!

May 9, 2014
Remembering MUANPI 
He was always with a smiling face
And also with very polite words
Never failing to greet an old friend
A regular church goer - I presume
An exemplary YPA member I can say
He used to be an honorary policeman too! Lamka will not be quite the same without Muanpi!
Thank you Muanpi for what give to your fellow Lamkans - a better world! Good bye as you go to even a much better world! 
My regret - Not being there to attend your funeral today!
09.5.2014

April 9, 2014

Another day and another trip for an ageing traveller!
Trying to pull out smartly your flight ticket from your IPhone you hit the wrong mail and up came a wrong ticket and the young security politely told you to step aside till you find the right one!
At the hotel you were given an activated card to use for the lift and your room and you accidentally deactivated it as you hold it too close to your phone and you had to get help from a hotel staff
Before going down for breakfast you couldn't quickly find the card holder and so you came down with just the card and then later you forgot which room you had checked into - a real challenge as you returned back to your floor and trying to remember which was your room!
You promise to meet a friend in another floor and you forgot the exact number of the room whether it was 613 or 618 as both looked the same anyway to your failing eyesight!
And in your return journey, history had a way of repeating itself at the security as if your life itself had become wired that way!
As you reached home and started to climb back wearily to your 3rd floor flat, you couldn't but be thankful for your beloved's prayer for you before you left home claiming the biblical promises!
Psalms 121:8
The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.

April 7, 2014
The amnesiac on the move again - this time to Mumbai - alerting the guardian angels!

April 6, 2014
I believe in God who does miracles! The miracles that happened to me are often trivial and personal as my faith in God is often limited to my personal need. Another example of how God performed a miracle in my life was about my clumsiness that happened 5/6 years back. Half way to the Dumdum airport from Taj Bengal I remembered that I left behind my flight ticket to Delhi in my hotel room. I told my co passengers in the hotel transport but decided not to turn back as they were two high ranking officials catching their international flights back to Sri Lanka and Maldives. I quietly prayed for a miracle asking God to send it - swishing - from the hotel room to my suitcase and believing it I quietly settled myself ! At the airport I started to check my suitcase but couldn't quite find it. So the first miracle - the security personnel at the gate invited me in after seeing me desperately fumbling with my suitcase for sometime. Second Taj Bengal staff at the airport checked with the hotel housekeeping who recovered my ticket and arranged to send it to the airport with the next consignment of their departing guests. Third, as my flight had to depart before it arrived, I was issued a boarding pass by Jet Airways staff and by the time it reached the airport I was already aboard the flight! They even sent me the stamped ticket through a Delhi passenger in the next flight who couriered it to me the next day! Small but sure faith to cover my failings is all that I have and certainly not the 'move this mountain' kind but it's good to have faith even if it's only large enough to cover you ....
April 5, 2014
Mangngilh' or 'forgot' is one word that's worrying me and my family when I travel. A week ago I went off to an important meeting before heading to another city by the evening flight for a meeting the next day! All of a sudden the world crashed with both my laptop and my phone battery going dead. I had 'mangngilh' my laptop cord at home and took a dead plug for my mobile charger! I hadn't noted down my PNR nor even the hotel where I was booked for the night! And worse still I never memorised any phone number except our landline at home! Thank God I managed to board the flight and also reach the hotel and best of all managed to come back home safe!

March 27, 2014
Mom was a hmar speaking diehard belonging to hmar lusei or hualngo or chhakchhuak and our relatives from her side speak hmar or mizo or hualngo depending on where they live. My dad was a Paite speaking Ngaihte but there are also many belonging to our clan using other dialects - simte, tiddim, zo, thadou, mizo. By the way I use only 'lamzang Pau' while my better half speak a dapzarish Lamka Pau which is a bit more like her dousel mom's rather than her father and father's family that use the l'ousau' - ngawnnbung-mulanuam variant of Paite!  

March 3, 2014
reflecting the past from the wrong side of sixty - you suddenly realize how fortunate you have been to be in good health and working without any major health problems al these years…..

Dec 31, 2014
preparing my year planner for 2014
Cornelius, Peter and Me
Cornelius Captain of an Italian Regiment
He and his family - devout and God fearing
Giving generously to those in need and also praying to God regularly
He had a vision and distinctly saw an angel of God who called out his name '
He was told his prayers and gifts came up as 'memorial offerings'
He was also instructed to take steps into areas hitherto unknown to him
Peter a fisherman turned leader was given a symbolic message 
To do beyond the confine of his own traditions and understandings 
He obeyed and proved that God has no partiality
Me, will prayer be as a regular important item in my year planner for 2014?Would it include striving towards becoming a devout God fearing family?
What regular acts of mine might go up before God as 'memorial offerings'?
What if the divine plan include a step outside the comfort zone?

Dec 30, 2014
interesting to look at the profiles of Forbes' 100 world's most powerful people(from S Dutta's posting) - the youngest being 29 and many over 60s even up to late 80s … not that we are looking to be influential … but reminding the young ones they don't have to wait and the older ones we needn't think of retiring too early …..

Dec 30, 2014
Just met two friends who on completion of their assignment with us in the NE went for their MPH in Amsterdam and Liverpool. Kingson now works with UNICEF in Arunachal Pradesh and Moses with IIPH (PHFI) Shillong. they remain good friends of EHA.

Dec 29, 2014
As we were praying with friends in Teen Challenge Manipur - to be touched in the inner man by the transforming power of Jesus - who died and rose again, we felt Him to very near us. We pray for God to new birth to make new people, we pray for his salvation so that we become victorious …. an hour to remember ….. simple words … simple prayers .. simple acts of body language -- they need your support …..

December 1, 2014

December 1 is World AIDS Day with the theme of 'zero new infection'. when will we see this happen? What it will take to see this. Meeting young innocent people still being infected, still dying - is too painful. Two mothers I met recently cannot breast-fed because it was consider safest for their babies if they don't! Both are just about 20 and one has co-infection with TB - that too military TB! The smile on their faces and their pale and frail bodies will be very hard to forget! How can we can ensure they at least get proper care, treatment and support for themselves and their newly borne babies?

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

Will you still love if I teel you the truth? R Tawmbing, PLHA, Manipur

Will you still love me, if I tell you the truth? Will you accept me if I let you know? Will you still hold me if I say “I love you” As I said before
There’s no way to hide the truth I don’t want to lose you But I don’t wanna hurt you I am standing still with confusion
Love is full of acceptance But I don’t wanna see you crying Coz I’m gonna leave you behind With shame and blame environment
Let me lose you, coz I love you Let me leave you for your betterment Let me fight it alone and leave you clean But I still wanna let you know that I love you!

note: this moving piece takes us back to the days when ART was beyond the reach of common man and it also reminds us today how thankful we should be that ART has become freely available in india..thanks to NACO/DAC, GOI. Langkham

C Sanga Ka hmangaih reng che (created in Mizo from Ricky Tawmbing's original in English)

Friday, 20 June 2014

Who will manage the managers?

who will manage the managers
there's a heresy - leaders would
how do we lead soldier-like managers
who only think in terms of win-lose situation
it is said we live in a cut-throat world
cant we make it a better world with a win-win philosophy
of mutual respect, of giving each other dignity
of recognizing each other's worth
of recognizing our differences
but more of our commonalities
as we all belong to the community of homo sapiens?

LK
20.06.2014

Thursday, 19 June 2014

living with HIV epidemic


I am recollecting today the walk we had way back about 15 years ago  at EHA meeting where he (my friend J) and his wife talked to me about his status. they came there with their daughter. and the next few years of turbulence when we struggled with him, cried with him, got exasperated with him for his choice of refusing to start medication till he finally gave in ......today when all quietened down as he started facing head on the reality with all its heavy baggages ..... I am glad God is real and pull him up again like Job.....

by the way I met two young girls recently - one have completed a professional course ready to climb up in her career and another pursuing a degree course - both strong and beautiful - full of life - but unfortunately orphans from young age due the ravages of the epidemic we are up against ... I was overcome with mixed emotions - very happy to see them as they lived on but very sad to see that they had been robbed of their parents at such tender age.......

of young widows from the NE coming to me and telling me that they were encouraged by the stories she heard about the way we took our stand way back ... and today themselves are now engaging in fighting the ravages of the the epidemic that had come to them with their marriage .. ...

prevention
treatment
care and support on a holistic way


are small things we can do on this side of eternity ..........

LK 19.06.2014

Sunday, 15 June 2014

A message from your Dad on Father's Day

Praying and invoking God's blessings for you on Father's Day

1.     To Esther, Khual, Hannah and Jojo
That you continue to receive blessings from God our Father
·       The peace of God,
·       Wholeness of body, mind and spirit;
·       Good friends and neighbours at schools, places of work and at home;
·       To be a blessings to people who look up to you and like you to be their friends and guide and whom you have an opportunity to mentor
·       Do grow in the grace and the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ!

2.     To Mary, Chris, Elijah and Ezra
·       That God may increase our gifts of creative communication and bless you richly through them and that you will glorify His Name through them!
·       That the children will grow up as examples of  good Indian Christian kids and God will always be their Protector!
3.     To Mung and Trina
·       That you may God be your peace in al circumstances
·       That God the giver of all good gifts give you and fulfill all your aspirations
·       That you both may grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ!
4.     To Cicy, Jimmy and Joanna.
May the Almighty give you
·       Prudence in different walks of life;
·       Success in your endeavours and
·       Be blessings to institutions you serve and the families you belong to!
5.     To Sam.
·       The grace of God be manifested in your studies, works and other pursuits.
·       May God bless you to be a blessing to your friends and colleagues, and teachers and guides!

To all:
·       Our hearts and love are always with each one of you.
·       One great word in Paite 'CHING' – to be worthy
·       A true gentleman is called 'Pa-Ching'
·       Similarly a true lady is also called 'Nu-Ching'!
·       May you all grow to become PA-CHING and NU-CHING for your children and families

Hebrews 11:20 By faith Isaac invoked future blessings on Jacob and Esau.
Ephesians 1:3 Spiritual Blessings in Christ. Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places.


ps. I had a special prayer for your U Bek and Ayao this morning 
16.06.2014 Dwarka